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March 4th, 2013

06:56 pm: weird headspace/ emo post- isn't that what lj is good for? :)
So, I've been in a weird head space lately. I feel increasingly isolated from the world. Like life goes on but I'm some how stuck in a bubble of stasis. I worry some day that I'm going to wake up and find out that other people have lived, truly lived their lives and all I can say for myself is that I came and went. I suppose that some of this comes from the fact that I live quietly and tend to keep to myself. Most of this comes from a lack of actual human contact. My phone is quiet- mostly used for an alarm clock. I continue to want friendships and a support system in my life and I continue to be too socially retarded to accomplish this. People come and go in my life like its a train terminal- all polite conversation and then they're gone. Some times I fear that like an under-socialized pet I'd be better hiding under the furniture- which is I guess what I've been doing for these past few years. My fiancee says I should get help for my depression but I'm not sure if depression is really what it is- it's more like frustration at a life barely lived. So I rage against it. I took up running and I'll do my first 5k. I do yoga and aim to teach it. I'm now throwing myself into meet up groups when I have the chance so I can say I've been out and done things. Some times it helps and some times it just emphasizes the teflon existence I live. I come, I go I pass through. I become numb and cold. I try to defrost. I fail and life just grows colder and I feel as if I've failed this thing called "being human" again.

Current Mood: happyhappy

February 12th, 2012

01:49 am: Don't want to post it to Facebook yet
.............but I want to make some form of announcement. I'm engaged!!! :)

February 17th, 2011

03:25 pm: Me on t.v.
For those who didn't see it on Facebook, I am on the news talking about children's books for Black History Month.


June 29th, 2010

03:38 pm: A post
So for those of you who didn't see on Facebook, my Pennsic plans have been tripped up by finances. I have been talked into still going, and so I will be there the first week. I'm just not sure how this is going to work out. My friend's assure me it can be done on a really tight budget but I am hesitant because I own nothing to use for camping and I've never been before. We will see how this works itself out :) Suggestions as always appreciated.

June 14th, 2010

04:42 pm: Something that I'm glad is being studied
So for those of you who aren't aware I'm a Children's Librarian (finally can officially call myself Librarian instead of Trainee as of last week- got the degree and everything :) ) In my job I see a lot of parents who are just plain guilty of crappy parenting, but one particular crappy parenting issue that has come to my attention is the smart phones/laptops/technology noise I've seen coming between parents and their children. I'm glad this has come to the attention of early childhood researchers. I really fear for the effect that this is having on the development of future generations. We all love our tech toys but there's just some thing particularly hypnotic about them. Its like our smart phones are covered in a fine coating of sugar and crack and we just need that one more hit. I'm seeing it in the behavior of the children and I'm seeing it in the behavior of the parents towards their children and its really not a good development.


March 3rd, 2010

01:25 pm: Hello all!

Yes, it's a post. An Actual Post. Some of you know I'm still alive because I'll put up random things about my lunch on Facebook every now and then, but I know I haven't actually done this thing called "communication with the world" in a while.

So what's been going on in the world of me? To save time/energy I think I'm just going to put down bullet points:

Work- Currently working for New York Public Library as a Librarian Trainee. As of a month ago I got transferred from the "world's smallest branch in an urban library system" to the "most ghetto branch" possibly in the system but I don't know. I just know that I spend most of my days here wishing I had access to my own private security force. To add to the fun, my hours have changed at work so I generally get home every night around 9. Needless to say Unhappy Robyn is Unhappy.

School- Have been working at getting my Masters in Library Science for much longer than expected (darn that need to pay bills thing) but as of May I am set to GRADUATE!!!! Of course, now that I'll have one Master's the next thing I HAVE to do is to start working on my second.

Social life- is on life support. Between work and school I haven't had much time for one :( I miss people!

January 5th, 2010

06:53 pm: Yay happy food time
So yay! my brother is in town this week. This means running around weird areas of the outer boroughs in the pursuit of awesome ethnic cuisine. I can't wait. This time around we're thinking of doing Crown Heights for the Caribbean food and a chance at a different bunch of flavors. Also on the list is strange regional Chinese delicacies in Flushing, possible pizza at Grimaldi's and wandering around Williamsberg mocking the hipsters. If anyone is around and wants to join us in food and wanderings and cares to contribute some mayhem, feel free to drop me an email :)

December 11th, 2009

01:56 pm: I'm a sheep
If I came with a warning label, what would it say?

June 30th, 2009

09:21 am: Where is Robyn today
Robyn does seem to have fallen off the planet lately. She isn't very good about posting here, is she. She says it's because she has work and grad school and a very very tenuous home internet connection that she has to pirate from the hotel they built next door to her building. Its all very unfortunate. Somehow though she still manages to get in multiple quizzes and small updates on Facebook. So really she's around, she's just lurking. Should you want to actually talk to her in person she will be spotted at Northern Region War Camp this weekend, as well as the McBain baby shower. As you can tell from the picture above,you will probably get her attention if you feed her. All edible bribery aside, she really is looking forward to this weekend and cannot wait to see people she hasn't seen in ages.

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